rant & rave

feeling like a salad, tossed. no sleep. my mind is too busy minding it's own business. gotta do this, shoulda done that, didn't do this, wanna do that. worry, wonder, plan, ponder, over-analyze, dysfunctionally-disastersize. get up to go pee... smoke a smoke, watch some TV. i read that i am cosmically prone to "liviving on nerves" ... the irony is living on them is killing all of them. or maybe it's the clover doublestacks. what can i say, i was young and dumb. fuck, i'm gonna be that wack-o old lady on the block pruning roses at 3.30 in the morning. scaring all the kids. weak!