25 November, 2011

14 November, 2011

.. and we're gonna get married

congrats to Carie and D!  


the couple announcing their engagement this week.  many well wishes and love sent to my girl and over facebook by some 150+ closest friends...  i can't wait to help plan the event, and to see a besty get married.  i will surely be snappy, snappy w/ the camera and will share the images on my website once processed.  the date is coming in 2012, stay tuned.  two great peeps with great friends - sure to be a fun time for all involved.  one for the books.  love you girl!

13 November, 2011

huz guy

dearest head detective.  happy fourth anniversary lover. four years into our mission 'operation nuptials', and tho at times it seems like mission impossible, i'd rather tread waters with you to float in calm ones without you. thank you for all you do for me, my crazy kin folks, and for all your hard work in school.  i'm blessed to have a husband who whole heartedly and unconditionally chooses to love me every day and who is focused on a way to make our tomorrow's a better day and our roads traveled a better way.  Even tho we may get frustrated at how we sometimes feel invisible to those close enough to take and interest in our life: pls. know even if we are.. i'm here cherishing your gift of love and friendship. all my love. melspy xoxo.  i wrote this a year and a half ago for our fourth anniversary, and revisit it regularly to remind myself how lucky i am to have a huzguy like tay.  now that we've started our family, and our nerves are a bit tattered and torn with the sleep deprivation and new routines i wanted to include it online to visit anytime. lucky indeed, in love indeed.  blessed.  indeed.

10 November, 2011

graciously grateful

been keeping a gratitude journal for a month now. many differences are noted throughout my days since taking on this project. since starting, i feel more present in the now. and the bantar in my mind has been calmed, not silenced, but calmed. soothed by the little things i'll note to reference in my journal throughout the day. i notice when i'm consumed by anxiety or angst, or am preoccupied by things that are out of my control... all of a sudden. i'll see something, like a couple kissing before separating; or, a pretty reflection in a building window; or, i'll simply think of one of the many entries i've made recently about things i'm grateful for and something lifts away and releases me from the sandtraps inside of me. so, the month long project now has a permanent leather bound booklet that will be maintained regularly and reviewed just as often to remember.. all the things i have to be grateful for - and i'm confident that all the blessings that have yet to find me will follow the path i've lit, like a pot of gold at the end of my rainbow.  


my first month, i am grateful for....


being ok with letting go
trusting in the trustworthy
sound presence of mind and body
not sweating small stuff
full moons
warm suns
bright stars
blue skies
all things soft and furry
rose gardens
BBQs and picnics
the science of fighting cancer
an inherient will to succeed
troops serving overseas,
my brother's sobriety
gizmo, my keekeemowmow
our tempurpedic bed
music, big bass, and dance
artistic expression
an open mind and heart
being present in the NOW
the higher powers that be
sunsets over mountains
my husband
every breath my sweet baby Cam takes
the first and last smile of the day from my baby
my sick sense of humor
believing there is more good than evil
trying to do a little better than the day before
that mom's surrounded by good friends
celebrating less drama in my life
a baby's laugh
the signs, signs, everywhere the signs
random acts of kindness
winter boots and summer sandals
medical insurance
not being addicted to facebook
warm bunting blankets
busses that are on time
a warm fire in the fireplace
a good night's sleep
long showers and yummy smelling soaps
fall colors
fresh, cold, apple cider
comfy pair of shoes
honey bees
a full cart of groceries
betty white's take on things
turntables and vinyl, vinyl, vinyl
an imminent great awakening
spoken word and self truths
colors, sounds, tastes, smells
trippple americanos
my guardian angels
animal rights activists
paydays
visits with good friends
northern lights #5
seeing change as an opportunity
rattlesnakes and charms on the dancefloor
our marriage
being able to say no
being with family during holidays
that the 99% are mobilizing
mt. rainer on a clear morning
niners are in it to win it
having coworkers that i enjoy
the journey
that pops got to know byron
gammy watching cam during the day
tay graduating with honors
the bass providing a secret hiding place
ttl (through the lens)
pumpkin costumes
dead cell phones
finding out how many licks it takes to get to the center
great architecture
those willing to stand up for less fortunate
people that truly give a fuck
my canon rebel xti
that the underground will never die, like cockroaches, always living
industrial fans on hot sweaty days
a walk on alki with my hubby
new tree freshner in our car
a good haircut and color job
having a window view at work
my boss
burps
soundcloud.com
graffiti, urban art installations, and sculpture
post it notes
video chats with mom
good water pressure in our shower
rats on cocaine and strongbad emails
neon signs at night
the sealion's bark echoing up the bluff from alki
the viaduct is finally demolished
date night with hubby
feeling
hoping
believing
louie, my kit-de-fuk-a-huz-guy, and i had our time and space (I love you meenomow)
old school hip hop, bringing it back to catch the break
a good laugh at no one's expense
sweatin it out on the dancefloor
my waterproof jacket
headphones and earplugs
thinking outside of the box
inspiring design concepts
a good, clear, concise font
mindless entertainment
red gumballs
cooliris
external hardrives filled with thousands and thousands of memories
the scrapbooks my mom made for me
my memories of my grandmas
being a tomboy growing up
not being a pussy
saying what i feel, and feeling what i say